Sunday, September 30, 2001
1:52 AM
I awoke today to the sounds of sirens in the distance. I had a quick sensation of panic. It didn't last long it hit and then subsided. I regained my calm but I was still slightly worried. I waited. I heard some more sirens. Closer. I turned on the TV. There was nothing on the local channels or on the majors. I felt a little paranoid. Relieved and wondering if that sound will make me think twice whenever I hear it.
I went for that walk today. I got off the T at Park street and then walked home by way of the Common, the Garden and then the Mall. I took some detours. Wendy's, Restoration Hardware, Crate and Barrel, and Newbury Comics. I went to pick up my last check and found out that it was direct deposited. I found that odd. Once again I had 401K money taken out. I hope it went to my account with Fidelity. I have no clue though. I hadn't worked at the Bookstore since April. I thought that all my benefits got cancelled. Oh well.
I bought a Smiths CD today. "Singles" I would put an associate link to it (so I could get some money) but it seems Amazon Associates is currently down so I just put a normal link. I just felt in the mood. All the Smiths albums I own are on tape. So I needed a CD. So there.
I don't know why but I have been going into Newbury Comics alot lately. I just want to add to my CD collection I guess. Escape.
Been slowly going through my Depeche Mode collection album by album. Wanted to do it in one day, but that is a lot of time. Am currently on Martin's Counterfeit ep.
Oh well. Sleep.
Saturday, September 29, 2001
10:02 PM
"An Open Letter to the Peace Movement" - by Charles Deemer.
Friday, September 28, 2001
11:42 PM
Just for fun. Spaced Penguin. -say it with an echo-
11:11 PM
Take this test from the Miss America pageant. I got 8 right. (That is all of them) But I guessed on question 3. It made sense. I beat the new Miss America by 2.
With this post I move foward. I didn't want to post again cause then my 9-11 post would go to archive. Not that they are moving deeply spiritual posts, but just that by doing so I would have to get out of this rut I have been in since wed morning.
I cleaned. Not my room, but the storage closet. It was bugging me. I finally donated those clothes and shoes to the Salvation Army and am seriously thinking about donating the Honda.
I've been in and out of a depression this past week. I awoke on Wednesday morning with a slight hangover and the feeling that I am avoiding any and all responsibilities. That I have been drinking too much agin when I go out. That I becoming a recluse. I still have yet to go for that hike. To just drive anywhere. Get away from the TV and this computer.
I stopped going to the bookstore. I never told them that I was quitting. I just stopped calling in sick. Stopped calling them at all. If I kept going in I would never leave that store again. Its like a black hole. It keeps me from doing anything else. It kept me from even trying anything else.
I bought michaelcutillo.com yesterday. So that now I have three domains. I am going to set them up very similiar to Angela's sites. Jadedturtle will be my creative side. Cutillo.org will be about my dad, the family and the golf tourny. MichaelCutillo.com will be my professional site. However and whatever that profession might be.
Tommorow I go for a walk. I pick up my last check. I start to plan. Sunday I will visit my sister and give her her printer. Then I will go for another walk. On Monday I begin to get organized. I will fix up my room. Buy that new futon. Do some laundry and start a schedule for how my days will go. In there I want some time set aside to read or write or just sit around and be lazy. I'll tell you more when i think of it. I just need to get back on track. The vacation is over. Summer is no longer here. Fall is in full effect.
Lets see what I can do. Lets see where I will be going.
Hope you will be around for the trip.
Saturday, September 22, 2001
11:31 AM
Well today I'll make the "long" trip to Providence to drop off my sisters laptop. She just started at PC. She will have a nice fast ethernet connection to PC's network. I'm Jealous.
Well I can't stay long things to do.
Friday, September 21, 2001
11:48 PM
Our new roommate Hide has a site up. (You will need japanese text support)
Andrew was in town these last two days. He is interviewing. They kept asking him how it was to fly. DC to Boston. He's leaving 2 hours earlier tomorrow just to make sure. I had to quell the urge to ask his flight number, just in case. I have to think positive don't I?
Wednesday, September 19, 2001
2:02 AM
To put it ever so slightly, there could be a better job market. Boeing has decided to cut 20 to 30 THOUSAND jobs.
This is not good news to an aerospace engineering graduate of Boston Univ (remembers) (John Silber's comments)
But I am alive.
Unfortunately it appears that 2 of my high school classmates may be among the dead. They are currently listed as missing. If you have any information about them, please contact me: Joe Corbett and Pat Wilson. Or any information about any West Islip graduates. Thank You.
Friday, September 14, 2001
2:42 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2001
11:25 PM
Please donate. If you can.
Amazon's Red Cross Donations.
PayPal's Red Cross Donations.
Megnut has some very informative links, most of an international bend. Go there for any serious writing. I don't want to write my thoughts, they are still too chaotic.
Wednesday, September 12, 2001
10:01 PM
Well so far so good.
None of my family or friends are missing, almost everyone is accounted for. And since we haven't heard from some yet we take that as a good sign that there is nothing wrong. Or someone would have contacted us by now. At least this is the hope.
It seems my cousin Billy was getting off of the subway when one of the planes hit. He got hit by a small piece of debris. He just started to run, and ran all the way to the FDR. I'm glad he is ok.
I hope all is well with you.
Tuesday, September 11, 2001
5:20 PM
I can't get the image of a SNL skit that aired before the Supreme Court decision that gave Bush the Presidency.
The skit showed the president giving a talk on TV at the oval office. The first skit was Gore lecturing america.
The second skit was Bush, the Capitol burning behind him, the US in shambles.
Hope you are well. I am still in shock.
2:20 PM
Right now I am worried about cousins and friends who work in NYC. I got an “I am out on vacation” response for Rob’s email and Keith's voice mail said he would be out of town until next week. I hope this means that they left the city.
Angela is ok, if rattled.
Blogs that are talking about the disaster.
I am still too shocked to know what I am feeling. I left work at 10:30. I was told by Tracey at 10:00 about what happened but when he added "... a plane also hit the pentagon." So I "KNEW" that it had to be a joke because that just pushed it over the top. I could see a plane hitting the towers, but not 2, and another hitting the pentagon was absurd. I was wrong.
I wish I wasn't.
I hope that you and your loved ones are safe.
Monday, September 10, 2001
11:16 PM
One of my secret joys is Tony Hawk's Gigantic Skatepark Tour on ESPN. It just makes me happy.
1:23 AM
So I have been quelching the desire to buy a mini-van. (If not exactly a new one.) I really really have this insane desire to go out and buy one.
So today (that is Sunday) was opinion day. I had 5 phone calls asking my opinion ranging from the PBA to Menino's re-election. By the 5th one I was annoyed and hung up.
Saw Band of Brothers with J. (He is my only friend who has explicity told me not to use his name.) Now I have to get HBO.
More page updates through out the week. I might actually move to a real server soon. I have a color scheme. Blue for weblog and archive. Green for any information about me. Black for content/more/old sites/etc. Grey for books (as it falls under content).
I like blue and green and black.
Saturday, September 08, 2001
12:31 PM
So some minor twitches that no one will notice (no one here anyway).
I'm hungry. It is more then a hunger for food, though I haven't eaten YET today. I am hungry for other things.
Security. Love. Warmth. Creative Flow.
But we will worry about all that on a later date. Ok? Cool.
Listening to Bjork's new album, Vespertine. Love it. Go, getup, right now and go, you aren't moving fast enough, dammit I said move. Lazy bones. Then buy it here.
So for some reason I no longer eat. I wait hours in the morning before I feel that my stomach will either jump out of my bod and strangle me, or that I will find sawdust attractive and start eating that. I think I have a Big Dig choclate bar downstairs. ooooh.
1:43 AM
Well so I just finished the first round of the reworked pages. The design now up is not yet finished. I like it, cleaner then the last but there are some things I might want to fool around with. There is still alot of work to do.
So I was supposed to go to Long Island to see my doctor about my arm. He cancelled. I don't know if I will be rescheduling. That is because I just got a bill for my first visit. It was over a thousand dollars. I had already spent $1,145 on my elbow. Now when i went to my first visit at the doctors I got the brush off treatment from him, "if you were a horse I would shoot you," and other nicities. I payed $300 for the first visit. The doctor didn't even do anything so I wonder where this $1000 bill comes from.
My mother, being who she is, opened the bill, and got pissed off. She then made what are her normal marathon phone calls, and got it reduced to $300. Good thing I am working at the Bookstore again.
Oh yeah. Tim called me up and asked me to return for law rush at BU. I did. Then Ed sweet talked me into staying part time til I find a real job.
Time to rest. But one last thing: Doug finished the Pool Table. It has some odd ball movement but it is still a pool table. So now we have a game room, Darts and Pool. Night.